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I’ll see if I can make it
Alex and I have some shit to do tonight but we can probably pull through
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oh! yes know. wasment for someone else but it's jst freebee at an underground comix place.
JUN 23RD, 8:13PM
Guess what we’re watchin
JUN 24TH, 7:45PM
yer eyelids? gay pride youtubes?
Monster road
And yes your answers as well
ah. get deep enough in to see me yet?
Not yet
Ian and I had to pause
He said it was too dry and it was late
Hopefully when Camilla falls asleep and I escape my self loathing
we’ll resume it
it gets wetter
anywho pretty old but has elements worth seeing
I really like it so far
I’m excited to watch the rest
JUN 29TH, 1:41PM
watch any more?
Yup
Finished it
Lil star struck not gonna lie
The visuals were amazing
And I was losing my mind over how great the claymation was
https://www.thestranger.com/events/27081739/who-killed-otters-babies saw this last night. guess who is in it?
Who Killed Otter's Babies?
June 28–July 8 - Carkeek Park - Seattle
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JUN 29TH, 4:31PM
Who?
JUL 1ST, 3:42PM
eva is a skunk in it
http://www.dachatheatre.com/otterton.htmlWho Killed Otter's Babies?Welcome to Otterton, the town where we hold hands all the way down the stream!
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JUL 17TH, 3:49PM
(^ just sayin. the thickness of the shell. matters.
am now in search of folk over their 28th birthday.
I'm coming to the conclusion anyone younger is either too thin skinned
or have so many layers of safety nets protecting them as to be impenetrable.
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This ostrich egg is equal to 16 chicken eggs. 🥚
INSIDER Presents
I love you Brian
This is another breakdown today
I’m tired of being a disappointment
knot you my friend(ish)
( I sent this out to quite a few folk actually)
I’m ready for la
hell you actually TRY once in a while.
and that counts for something.
(^ I'm simply reassessing how what and why/where I fit into other ppl's livlihoods
I don’t just wanna try
I wanna succeed
sigh. tHERE. listen if/ when you got a chance, mk? ( I can't because the library has no headphones, but this song was a shout out to me from dan bern yesterday. really old song re invented. was originally "geneva romance" about gorbachv and ron reagan summit :
ready to store a link?
Ready
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A little Helsinki Romance...
Radio Free Bernsteinn
there ye go. he's on tour. will be here in october
ok. l*r
No shit?
close friend from october, 1989
yep. see a full concert he did back in 1997 . most songs hand picked to fuck with me , knowing i'd be there. tractor tavern is walking distance from my home(s)
annnd yesterday, he begged someone to find a link to the recording of it just so he could let me know he was thinking of me: note. this is lllOOONNNG. and has little to do with 2018
boom . have some oldschool "L.A" and how pissed off it makes workaholics who never know how to insist on taking a brakecheck break
https://youtu.be/DiTHCAxQD0k
Dan Bern (live concert) - November 20th, 1997, Tractor Tavern, Seattle, WA (JEMS Archive)
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I need that
I want the worst of humanity and selfishly I’ve only surrounded myself with positive friendships
ok. thEAR. kNOW I', m off to greenlake to watch a poet try to intice folk into letting her write stuff for them. for free
ttfn
pushing towards 4:20. I'm off to drum my way past it. :shrugs: you have my celphone. 'tsup 2 U to use it. same to ian. I got thINKgs to work over. (and out.)
I do
Ian gave it to me but I was waiting for a special text to surprise you
ha. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQetTYCrcAY
KIN x DUST $10,000 Sci-Fi Short Film Competition
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a little late now on that one, but hey. stuff shows up all the time. it's all in the timing
ok NOW I leave the library. other side of greenlake. up a tree, people watching: sketching, gluing pages together etc. trying not to get skin cancer
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AUG 13TH, 3:14PM
onwards. time shifts.
It’ll come back around soon enough
Time is a flat circle
hope your birthday is better than just getting wasted
Thank you
I hope so too
btw.. https://www.facebook.com/justin.kohn1 worked on monkeybone
Justin Kohn
you don't actually have a vhs player do you?
I do
It’s one of those vhs dvd combos
Had to fish it out of storage
time SIRALS and never lands in the same space for more than a momentuum
sp..spuh spEYErrawlszzzz
I’m ok with where it landed at this moment
sorry life takes so long to come to fruition
Life can kiss my manhood
I choose what happens
I’m too stubborn to let that shit take control
i'm simply regathering cost, customs and costumes for th' cuss tomb burrs
and I've given you and Ian enough time . my van's alterator is on the fritz so you won't be seeing much more of me anyway. got work too far away to keep hitting beth's
WED 2:24PM
I’ll bring the journal in for you dude
I’m sorry I kept it so long
ha. it's yer burpday. the journal is was for you and ian. monkeybone on the other hand, harder to let loose. it's what taught me to NEVER trust ppl with too much money and backing
unless they already love and care for me
For sure I’ll bring them in to the cafe
Been meaning to but late morning have been killing me
I’m moving at the end of the month with nowhere to go
I might buy a motorcycle and drive to the coast
my van's weak alternator has killed AND simplifried stuff. been doing some loose timelapse and stop motion experiments instead while cleaning/clearing up some yardwork
you're young enough. doo eeeeeet
I plan on it
uhhhmmmn actually.. van couver BC has more available work in tv and film industry than most other places at this point'
a travel van that you can live in while travelling might be better than a cycle. things have changed sincethe 60s
Im bringing it back
like comming back for yer.. uh... smartphone instead of just getting another one
i'll be 60 soon enough. IF I don't pull a late bloomer 27 club move
I didn’t have the money for it
And that’s my plan
I got 5 years left
go to bickford's art gallery show before you leave tho?
anywho I'm off to a life drawing free show at pushpull. shift yer get together mmmK?
Will do
Gotta get my affairs in order too
and others. happens all over. just a desition on who what why and wherefor. ok I'm off one last old shot from me and that dead guy. for yer burpdaze:
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thEAR!?
Brian Prosser and Chris Rodgers Animation Tyme.
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different cut from the see?! piece
WED 6:33PM
https://www.facebook.com/michael.kacena/posts/10216316802702953
We have a room for rent in North Seattle. Available on the 1st. Come by and see it this week. $500+ bills. No pets. Must be laid back, and love pigs.
Michael Kacena
FRI 11:05PM
Ok worry about you
The tail end attempts to go out from underneath you as you change lanes
This damn lines are a motorcyclists worst nightmare but you are experienced and keep control
You barely notice it to be honest
You only think of the road
The blue sky
The green hills that seem to be overflowing in tall evergreens
Which ones are fir?
Dad would know
You regret your curiosity
Better to leave him behind
He’s probably losing his mind by now
Or not
It’s only been a day
You feel guilty
But rationalize our decision to flee
You weren’t healthy there
It wasn’t beneficial for you
It gagged you
Smothered you
Travel is your home
The road your house
Your thoughts your company
Ok so don’t worry about dad
What about your roommate Tom?
Rent was only a month away.
You have valuables and you said he could sell your records and television set.
But would it be enough?
Could he find a roommate within the month?
Of course he could, he said something about a coworker needing a home and your valuables could more than double the rent even if that idiot went to the seediest of pawn shops.
Ok so don’t worry about Tom
What of your manager Elise?
She’s already in the middle of buying the diner you cook at. Well cooked at. Can she find someone capable of replacing you at such short notice?
Yes. They can put any idiot on Larry’s shift
The lunch crowd dosent matter
Ok so don’t worry about Elise
Damn you could use a smoke
With one hand steering you along you reach into your saddle bag
Not bad for a relative amateur
3 packs left in the first carton.
Should last for a few days
You spy one of your plastic baggies
Maybe some blow to help you stay awake
It’s almost dark and your eyes are heavy.
You see a gas station sign
The place is straight out of an old photograph from the 40’s
Metal sign(with bullet holes) and a rickety old fire hazard of a building
The beige paint peels off in bunches and merely sprinkles an accent of color upon the rotting wood
You unzip your leather jacket a bit to cool your warm skin
You reach into the right saddle bag and produce one of your baggies
You pocket it and enter the service station
A gruff yet frail voice greets you
Want me to fill her up mister?
You look up and see a thick man with white hair and suspenders
You try not to laugh at his ridiculous handlebar mustache as you slide him a 20
You ask where the restroom is and he points to a door in the back
The smell of pine-sol assaults your nose but other than the pungent odor
The restroom is cozy
It harkens to a simpler time
Where pastel tile and porcelain was fashionable
You produce the baggie and pour the powder onto the lid of the tank
It’s rocky shit but good
You made sure to avoid the gasoline shit that you knew would destroy your throat
Your cut up two lines and snort them
GOOD SHIT
You piss and leave the nostalgic restroom
The short stubby man is behind the counter
It’s hard to believe he filled up your tank already but you wouldn’t doubt an experienced service station veterans speed
He has a 5 dollar bill and 3 quarters laid upon the counter top
You buy a beer and insist the old geezer keep the change
As you exit and prepare to get back on the road
An old crown Victoria with green sheriff stripes and a large gold star rolls up and parks right behind your Honda
Shit
The pig gets out
Another laughable mustache
This one is brown and walrus like
He is young but even a youthful cop in these parts seems to be a relic from a time long gone
He looks at my beer and coyly states
Illegal to drink and drive
I look at the Heineken bottle
I was just gonna enjoy the view
He lets out a laugh, similar to one a parent would give when they caught their teenager stealing shots from their Costco half gal
I don’t think you’re the type to drive after one of those
I laugh
I’d love to enjoy this brew but I’d loathe to make such a poor impression to such a stand up individual such as yourself. Could I perhaps get a ride into town?
He looks me up and down
Smiles
I think that could be arranged, bill get me one more Heineken
We sat on the gravel enjoying the view of green trees and rolling hills
He told me the history of the location
I still wasn’t sure whether I was in Oregon or California
He laughed
We rode into town and with a pat on the back and a reference he sent me into a welcoming diner that seemed out of place in our modern world.
I walk in waving the sheriff or deputy goodbye
You walk in and admire the red polyester adorning the bar stools
Write later
Main character
Stops at gas station
Does coke
Buys a beer
Has conversation with weird clerk
Sheriff is there
Asks him where he’s from
Takes him into town to the motel
Too expensive
Goes to the town diner
Asks for work
They agree
He sleeps at the diner
Meets dale the prep cook
Discuss running away
Dale offers to let him live with him
Agrees to live in town
Does so for a few weeks but knows his goal is Los Angeles
Leaves
Almost gets run off
Fight
reading dink. wow. beth wifi works fer a sec
Opinion please
I suck at those. normally, i recropy/paste and add heckle wyrds in the midst: like footnotes.. marked ""(> like this. " while straight quotes from your text marked ">", and yOUR text, (a mixed me rewriteusing partials) would be marked "(^> " . making sense of how I cribnote? ok back to reading. so far I'm around the skidmarks of a cyclist trying to leave dad behind
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>.. The road your house
Your thoughts your company"..
(^ que this, but only the non vocals. just the background sounds.
harmonica.. moshed up with willie nelson on the road again
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Canned Heat - On the Road Again live at Woodstock 1969
Canned Heat On the Road Again live at Woodstock 1969
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(^cropping all vocals out of the mix. just aumbiance for road trippin moodset
((onwards. yep this I kindo..freebe. 'tson me.))
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tsk just marking time spent
(^ know wait, BTT... is this about yer pistolwhipped gunrun that tanked for lack of a gps tag?
(9^ hot glue gun. it's..funnier)
or burr"..he.. he took his screwgun with him.. he NEVER takes his screwgun!.. time to really worry that he ain't cummin back
((^ soory.. confidentual crazytalk. no worries. I know lotsuh shift nobody is aware of))
(^ woopsies. back to your sCRYPT..))
>Damn you could use a smoke< (^ so could I..
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> You see a gas station sign
The place is straight out of an old photograph from the 40’s
Metal sign(with bullet holes) and a rickety old fire hazard of a building <
(^..hmn. lemme look..brb)
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(^fun.just cuz...
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((^sorry Btt.. just bemuses me. knowkay back 2U
((^uhhhn..rewrite cummin up:
(( because sometimes you gottah cut back on extras with lines.
((play em yerself so you don't have to pay for a one liner (^>TE3m
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only sortuh kidding
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(^ knOK. scratch earlier edit. THIS is the guy you ( or whoever plays the snorter part) should play:
. >He is young but even a youthful cop in these parts seems to be a relic from a time long gone
He looks at my beer and coyly states
"Illegal to drink and drive"
((^why? because it's a side effect of the rock snort^))
yes know I'm actually reading this.. kinyuh tell?
...omwardszzzz
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I walk in waving the sheriff or deputy goodbye
You walk in and admire the red polyester adorning the bar stools "
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ok. dung4now.. time?
1:05am. freebe but.. GIVE ME MY MONKEYBONE!!
annd. as a wrap: thEAR.
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ZZ Top with John Fogerty play Creedence best Hits!
Sign in the Channel! All about good music! ZZ Top with John Fogerty play Creedence best Hits!
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g'moUrnINKg.night .that was fun l8R> SD aka T3Em and or TE3m dependant on inwardIntr0 or outwardXit spection
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enough of a hint? ok I'm dung. will now sandbag till you tie it up
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(^ phhhhHA! updating that bent fork in the road: sodermicheal . twising it forwards
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also. the tobacco you left behind and settled for tailor mades...
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the pouches. yep. funier stist off the 3 packs left: 3 midnight specials
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tsk I mean if yer gonna go all 1960s road trippy... go oldschool on the smokes. that or lucky stikes
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SUN 5:31PM
What’s the brand you told me about last night
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midnight special is both a brand of tobacco, a song by creedence clearwater, annnddd.. this for historic reference..
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The Midnight Special (TV series) - Wikipedia
The Midnight Special is an American late-night musical variety series originally broadcast on NBC during the 1970s and early 1980s, created and produced by Burt Sugarman. It premiered as a special on August 19, 1972, then began its run as a regular series on February 2, 1973; its last episode was on...
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nuff swAYED. ONWARDS
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"Midnight Special" is a traditional folk song thought to have originated among prisoners in the American South.[1] The song refers to the passenger train Midnight Special and its "ever-loving light" (sometimes "ever-living light"):
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on my way down towards beths. just a warnINKg
Your videos are there
I’m home
classic tnx. been a strange month
ok,2 decades then
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SUN 11:15PM
Thank you for being the the Virgil to my Dante
Or better yet the George Gurdjieff to my bill Murray
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ok so you had me read something. read what i weote last night?
AUG 13TH, 4:23PM
tsk anywho. lots of storytelling materials, much unshared with you, including some leeds on work up in canada
and storage possables from kristaa (remember gher?) while roxanne will have better space for me to store etc once the threatener is off property, around the 20th of this month.
:shrugs: at least I don't need find ferret cat care in order to go urbane camping. phhtHA!
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This historian says he has found the solution to poverty
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MON 6:46PM
got it. nobody told me. mary is in monroe. sigh. I met her before I met any of you. too bad you don't seem to remember that. .sigh. abandonment is abandonment no matter how you rationalise it. I guess I should have called her back after that call she sent .or after you called me with your dream. I'm ok for now. sorry i interupted your visit with your mom
MON 10:30PM
Kitty was on the boat with a Scott Doerflinger maybe he was in the band and a few others. Anyway Kitty seems to know lots of people.
JUN 6TH, 5:18PM
Who is Tecate Don it is apparently Kitty's best friend ever. I never remember her ever talking about these people.
9:46PM
How is your van doing? Did you find a mechanic? I will be at Mable's on Wednesday.
I most likly won;t be . too many horriblr thinggs going on tht I don;t care to butdon you with.. BUT I may need your help getting materials from kitty's place to make handprints with again, if that's something you really want to do
kitty doesn't wwant to talk to me but is willing to have you contact her about a good time to have me get materials from back yard. it's a big mess that I don't have the stomach nor nerve to begin from scratch again. I have vast resources still just sitting there . no point in getting any of them back unless I'm actually going to start making things with them again
end long rant. sorry. been a very rough 3 days. nothing to do with you or your family. just other things I'm having to work out and through
gnite. talk some other time.
(^ texted. goodnight . sorry I ruined your life. at least you got a kid out of it
I think we both need sleep. the 2 dreams tha got me sat bolt upright aftyer only having around 3 hours of sleep were: ! seeing a facebook thing you had posted ( in the dream mind you. not real, but my mind was confused) it said : hope today goes far better than yesterday"
2 other dream : mary on celphone, the message she left weeks ago ( that one was another dream,,caused by ian phone calling me to let me know he;d found the expensieve jacket he'd left in the break room at goodwill
see? I text a LOT. you used to to.
i miss them
goodnight sorry this is when I actually do most of my writing. thanks for giving the ability for me to get back to work by giving me the laptop, the library hours were too constrictive. ok? enough already? I'm having to find new ( and far more lacluster) than you. thanks for ALL THE TYPINGand photography and documantation for so many years. sighs. I guess I'm going to have to look forward to beginning anew. again. this time without someone like you or letendre or lynn or bruce bickford or blablabla bla on and on , tsk, but the newer tales are, e=well, funnier, in a tragic way. a little less convoluted too. i can thank you for that. learned a lot from watching you try, then give up hope, over and over again. just like repunsell clubfoot
end of story. have fun at work if you can
back to conversations with martin. ttfn
https://www.facebook.com/encyclopaediaofhell/photos/a.166159836770828/1901211859932275/?type=3 oh. dan bern says hello as well
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why did i actually think these things were sellable? damn am i a dumbass
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guess that's it then. my life trueklly ended after fiddler on the roof because charley wasn'to theater, and not into camping . i wonder of thi whole crowd, who still talks to either of them: wonder why.
5:33AM
sigh. that's all of the 3 hours of sleep i got. i understand mary all too well. and my mary too. bi polar? runs in the family and spreads like alcoholism i guess, and now i'm watching it spread to yet another generation, and i get the blame and yep i also have to quit faerieworlds, just like i had to quit oddmall, and ward, and thistle theater, and cafe racer and couth buzzard and a re use recycle community.. and rene and on it goes. nightmare after nightmare of being told my dreams weren't worth shit all the way back to trying to learn how to do mason work. yep back to anything i did including trying to keep fish alive as a way to cope with the loss of my mom, property, 68 robie, and yes the loss of the love and respect and care and time with you. it's all there. back to ralbert and kate. to me going down to l a for training to work for flat aerth.
why did you rescue me from ella voekly in the first place? WHY?!!!
you gave me a reason to escape. now i find myself trappedgoldfish888 all over again 22 years later geocities? ? crap kitty why did i rush back up here to try to work from seattle in the first place? because you forced me to fall in love with you. and i wanted the best of both worlds. i now understand i gave you all of me when all you wanted was a miner bump of a taste of me to distract you from working with juan and shovelling shit out of a sewer line for too low of s pay gig. jeazzze why did i blind myself to that and run back to los angelos and tell my mom not to give me an early inherritance so i could try to make things work in seattle?! shhift. WE sure made a mess of things. not me alone. and you KEPT getting help! me? i sacrificed it. and I'm the one who is selfish. you actually never kept writing and now the paranioic realization that all those tuesdays were little more than all those saterdays clubbing while juniper hung on desperrately waiting for you and resented me for not being YOUU. but i stayed. even after all that why? i guess because i'm sick that;s why. same reason i had a hard time leaving ella , same reason i had a hard time leaving george. btuce, etc. same reason i had a hard time leaving nebraska, leaving l a, leaving texas, leaving buffalo.
i guess i'm sick with the want for acceptance and keep trying to hold on to the wrong pond/crowd.
even helping alan move. take care of his 2 children. when mesba had wrenched al's wife's spine out of place when she tried to change his diapers while keeping an eye on her younger one.
caregiver, i kept getting tossed caregiver duties, jist like derb. no shit. and then tossed to the curb when the hospice was over.
and now you expect me to simply walk away? leaving all of me to get taken to another dumpster? i really thought you were different. you'd PROVED you were different. but now? sigh. same old shit. christ yer gonna turn me into ron tweedie. only thing saving me is my lack of testonerrone
my girlyman ness. that resentfilled witch spirit who is raging through me like something straight out of into the woods and what the bleep do we know
endjoy ypour secret life of biking and whatever else you really did with tuesdays while pretending to go to some girls house and never continuing the stories you wrote in that writing class about your daughter.
i hope you get back to those, the tooth truth. etc, and me? i get the role of the narcoleptic narciscist.
and garbage of life spirit hoarder,
toxic love. straight out of fern gully. sigh and at one time wayyyy back when i was still at 7th lvl, i now realise i was being given the oppertunity to work on fern gully 2, but had to instead rush back to nebraska in order to escape ryk linn yvonne and tweedie.
sand andras jones, dan bern, and the iguanna caffe and sam longoriea
only to have them all finfd me out HERE! christ this all sux so hard
all of MY writing. trapped in ded archives in a room no one goes into and manjia wanting to be petted ans slept with
being FORCED to ABANDON people is NOT the role i like .
yeah yw=eah sye=re ut's all about "me" not eWE
and now yer mom is going to turn you into her. and pin will /is following the same path. use em up and spite em out
your poor dad
no wonder he became a hoarder. what choice did he have as everyone including his own wife and children abando
ned his hopes and dreams? ( I was there. I saw. watched the dissolvement of the milkboat race annuals
"YOUR" family. wholey crap. thanks a lot. and thank derb while yer at it mmmK?
I'm trying to sleep. I guess i need to disconnect you from Facebook messenger. These messages make too much noise. I need sleep. Maybe you should go to sleep.
i tried :sobs: ok ok ill tye all this crap somewhere else. mark is gonna get abandoned and kicked to the curb just like me and yer sister. thanks for introducing me to all the new stored wry tales, glad YOU get all the help you need . and sleep and love and care my bad. I'll go type to myself in a blogsot or something sorry to be so tethered
worse thwn eon tweedie. i get it
stopping.
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and none of that is made up, bentintine. all true to life. thanks for the vhs tapes back
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